Do you fight depression? Do you fight anxiety? Do you fight that inner voice that says you are never good enough? Then I want you to know you are not alone. I am a person who lives with depression, anxiety and used to suffer from never feeling good enough.
I am a person who has neurodiversity, I have depression, anxiety and ADD (not medically diagnosed, just symptoms noticed), and for many years I fought these parts of me.
I was clinically diagnosed with severe depression in 2015, I sought therapy, and eventually I chose to see a Psychiatrists and take medication. Instead of being thankful and happy about having and taking medication that stabilized my emotions, I was so mean to myself that I "had to take medication" just to not fall apart. I had to take medication to "keep it together"... I made it mean I was broken, I was a failure, I wasn't "normal".
I didn't want to feel down, I didn't want to feel "negative", I didn't want to be "lazy", I didn't want to be "inconsistent", and I didn't want to have low self esteem. I wanted to be bubbly, always positive, always productive and disciplined. I wanted to be like "them". The other people who had it so "easy"... but that wasn't me, no matter how hard I tried.
Through life coaching, learning about the human brain, learning about my brain patterns and responses. I learned that having depression didn't make me any less worthy. It didn't make me any less valuable. I learned that I could have depression AND be a positive person. I learned that I could have depression with high production and low production AND it didn't mean I was lazy. I could be a person who has depression AND high confidence and high self esteem! I learned that I could be a person who lives with depression AND not beat myself up over it! I learned that I could love all parts of myself, and have my own back no matter what!